20 4 / 2013
I’m freaking the hell out. But a part of me knows everything will be okay I’ve prayed about, stressed about it, cried about it…. I have faith in us though…
18 4 / 2013
"Stop ruining love by wanting it so bad."
Hmph scrolled down and answered my own damn question
(via extraordinarybrother)
18 4 / 2013
I don’t know if it’s a good or a bad thing….how i feel about him possibly leaving me…. I hate the thought of life without him…. Is that good that he means the works to me and completes me or bad that i depend on him that much…..
06 4 / 2013
Ok. Soooo i realIzed where i am in life….. Without the man i love I’m pretty boring. I tried to go out and enjoy myself tonight. But every thought went back to him. I wished he was there for me to dance and be silly with. My girls are fun but they aren’t him. A majority of the night i talked about him…. I’m ready for it to just be he and i…..but is he
05 4 / 2013
Ummm
I stopped fucking with most of my friends when i got a boyfriend….now he is far away and i can’t going anybody to even go to dinner with what in the hell
03 4 / 2013
I’m in this really deep dark ass funk that i can’t seem to pull myself out of….. I hate this shit
01 4 / 2013
Second thoughts about all of this.
Clearly i have to be taught how to be loved …. Sucks to say this is new to me and I’m not doing to well
30 3 / 2013
Question.
How is it that even when i try to be upfront and honest is misinterpreted into me bring sneakyand deceitful…..I’m confused as hell
29 3 / 2013
Quick catch up.
What has been missed. Sadly not too much. The midget is growing up soooooo quick,i feel like if i blink I’m going to miss something. I moved. I stopped bartending. Cut ties with a majority of my friends.which is good and bad. Gained some much needed independence and distance from the world. And i have been blessed with an unbelievable counterpart. It was so random, we stumbled into this,but im so thankful that we did. He means so much to me. My confidant, my refuge, my lover and my best friend. He makes me a better person, which sounds very cliche and cheesy but…. Its true, he gives me love that i have never known. I’ve earned his trust, and his love and he has surely gained mine.As random as this is he has been a major influence in my life over the last year and a half. Soooo no more sad ass post, yay. Right now the distance is killing me, and he has so much going on but the moments he does get, he makes sure that i don’t feel forgotten or overlooked. That i feel loved. And yes. I feel loved lol. I am getting back on tumblr though. Because these are the things i wouldn’t put on twitter, or Facebook. My intimate thoughts.
